I've not been around for ages. I didn't even post all of my birthday goodies as intended or any of my latest fashion type purchases. Well I'm a bit ashamed to admit I've been weight obsessing. This realfourteen is currently feeling a bit more like a sixteen in a particularly unattractive bloated and flabby way.
I decided to put myself on a clothes shopping ban - if I'm determined to lose weight, what's the point in buying clothes which will shortly be too big for me, right? I was feeling super determined and spent a while thinking about different diets. I decided to go for one that's pretty extreme and after careful consideration, placed my order and then waited for my brother's 21st birthday to pass before starting.
Well today is day 5 and I'm having a pretty hideous time of it! I've managed not to buy any clothes, although I have been religiously checking asos, topshop etc just for inspiration to keep me on the straight and narrow, but eatingwise, I've been quite rubbish.
Day 1 - 3 went well, but on the evening of day 3 I started to crack. Day 4 was yesterday and as it was Saturday I had plenty of time ot think about fridge raiding and gave in. In my defence, the diet I'm doing is total food replacement (you don't eat any real food) so it is hard, but I really lack willpower. I'm going to try to be 100% again from today, I would love nothing more than to be slimmer for summer and be able to choose what i wear because I like it, not because it will cover the parts I don't like.